Mother’s Day isn’t the same for everyone.
For some it is amazing. You get to spend the day with your little people, you get to spend it with your Mom, you go out for breakfast/brunch or dinner. You just relax and bask in the comfort that is your Mom.
But for some it is just another reminder that your Mom isn’t here. Instead of sitting next to you at brunch, she is looking down from Heaven.
For me, Mother’s Day brings up so many feelings. Feelings of happiness, sadness, joy, and loneliness. Ever since losing my Mom, Mother’s Day hasn’t been the same and I honestly don’t think it ever will be.
Now don’t get me wrong. The sound of little feet bounding down the stairs and charging my bed with handmade gifts totally makes me smile! The excitement and unconditional love that I see in their eyes when I open those cute little cards makes my heart soar. The high pitched “Mom, do you love it? I made it just for you!” makes me tear up every time!
But the truth of it is it celebrating Mother’s Day without your Mom just plain sucks. Each year the mantra that runs through my head goes something like this …
"You got this. This year you will be OK. This year you won’t cry. It’s been 6 years, you'll be fine."
But each year when Mother’s Day comes I am flooded with memories – good and sad.
Like …
Hitting all of the plant sales from Hollis, to Amherst, to Milford and then grabbing lunch when we can’t buy any more plants!
My Mom’s amazing laugh when she heard Ry tell her a joke.
The heavy sadness I felt when I told her I would miss her when she was gone.
The loneliness I feel when I can’t pick up the phone and call her.
Now, I will never tell anyone that losing your Mum and your best friend is something that will get easier with time ... because it doesn’t.
But I will tell you that it has made me a stronger woman and a better Mom. I have learned that the love you give your children will be carried with them for the rest of their lives.
Spend time with them, tell them that you love them, hug them, kiss them, show them you love them. By doing this they will never doubt how much you love them - even when you aren’t around.
